It has been two months since my last post! I have always been called a 'Jack of all trades and master of none' ever since I was young, and it is so true. The scary part is that now I have a 20 year old daughter who is just like me! We both get excited about a new idea or project and jump into it at 150%, only to either tire of it or find something else more exciting around the next corner. I am proud to say that there are at least two things I have stuck to for 25 years - my marriage and my job! That's quite a feat for anyone that knows how I jump to the next 'hoodlum scheme' as my brother so aptly described my 'projects'. Right now, I feel like a juggler who has 100 balls in the air, and the funny part is that I'm not even sure I have seen some of those balls in a while. Let me explain to the uninitiated. Firstly, I'm not even sure who I am! My family knows me as Douglas Brown, but there is a whole group of online friends that know me as Vincent Madison. I started the Vincent Madison pseudonym when I started my LOST 'project'. Back in 2005, I came up with the idea (well to be truthful, the idea kind of grew out of control like some mold) to create an online world of entertainment that was based on the hit ABC TV show LOST. I needed a name, so used the character name of the dog on the show - Vincent, along with the dog's real name - Madison. The rest is history. So real has Vincent become, that he (um me really) is writing a novel this summer that will allow online users to be part of the process. (See how crazy I am?)

I think a lot of it has to do with using the TV as a babysitter back in 1963 when I was only five and living in Edinburgh, Scotland. I grew up (and I think my brain developed) watching Doctor Who. I truly believe that watching Doctor Who, in combination with some crazy creative genetics, paved the way for my love of science fiction, fantasy and that just 'thinking out of the box' was not enough - I knew that there WAS NO BOX!

Our family moved from Scotland to Toronto, Canada in February 1967 when I was eight years old. That was exciting for me, and every time we moved somewhere, I thought that the change and new adventure was the best thing ever. I could never understand those kids that were upset and sad at the thought of moving, but then I was never Mr. Sociable, so for me that was not a big issue.

I remember arriving in Toronto on a BOAC (Now British Airways) Boeing 707. Back in 1967 there were no such things as jetways, so we had to walk down the steps of the plane onto the runway in -20 degree weather - me of course wearing my British School Uniform with shorts!

The other thing I remember on that day - Feb 4th 1967, was traveling by car across Toronto on the 401 and how futuristic it looked as we went under the interchange at Yorkdale Mall.

Since that day, we moved from one house in Toronto to another, then to Montreal in 1971, then back to the Toronto area, then I moved out to Edmonton, Alberta after college, then back to the Toronto area where I am today.

For someone who keeps saying he wants to live alone in a cabin in the woods (Jacob?) I embraced the internet at its birth. I was an early Compuserve user in the late 1970's and had my first PC in 1979.

I now have more websites than I even know, along with multiple YouTube, MySpace and Blogger pages. My LOST online world expanded from a single website in November 2005 to an integrated online world that I sometimes think is real.

It's no wonder I don't feel like I have time to relax, with a Film Production Company, TV Broadcast Studio, Passenger Airline, Historical Society, Photographer Site, Environmental Site, Web Design, and novel writing on my plate. There is more, but I would need to actually research what else I have forgotten, and I'm to lazy to do that.

It makes my otherwise boring life exciting and fun, and I know that my online friends appreciate it, but mostly I do it because I crave new ideas and love coming up with them. Implementation is usually fun too, but ongoing detail and support is when things get boring for me. I need to team up with someone like my younger daughter who thank goodness although she got the family creative genes from my side of the family, seems to have got the organization, and attention to detail and follow through from my wife's side!

I'm not even sure why I'm writing this post. I initially thought it might help me to regroup and consolidate things to keep all my crazy ideas under control, but it seems more like I just needed to get my swirling thoughts on paper with the hope that some of them might get out of my head.

I think I do need to try this summer to both downsize, reorganize and focus on a few projects and do them well, as well as finding time to relax with friends and family.